“这世界笑了 于是你也合群地跟着笑了 当生存是规则 不是你的选择 于是你含着眼泪 漂漂荡荡 跌跌撞撞地走着“

My favourite sad song (:

什么时候开始学会把笑堆满整张脸 即使心里多难受 也大笑应对 从前多么地会耍脾气摆臭脸 硬要别人迁就本小姐 结果现在换成我配合人家多一些

什么时候才会学会付出努力配合一切 只会把自己弄得更累 从前以为这样的用心 也能换来别人的真心感谢 结果发现这样的我很傻 因为人家一点也不屑

“为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢“

Books Books Books!

Am on a book-reading spree lately so that I can look at my phone lesser and scroll through fb lesser! But the pace at which I am reading is rather slowwww :/

Just wanna note down the books that I have read to keep track and to keep on reminding myself to read more!

Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

I finally conquered a classic! (: Proud of myself haha (Y) Initially thought the language from the olden times would be super hard to understand and that would require much more effort but I managed in the end! (: I am amazed that love stories dating from so long can still be so sweet and romantic. Classics are indeed timeless.

Still remember I bought this book for only $3 at a book fair -Super happy that it's a good buy! (:

The Confessions of A Shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella

I always felt the series is such a cheer to read, along with her other books with the funny protagonists. It is interesting and amusing to read about all the inner monologues she keeps having with herself, though some (or usually) they are kind of naive, weird and just don't make much sense at all! It is comforting to read about all her flaws and to know that maybe there are people out there with such silly thoughts that sometimes I may have as well haha! But seriously, an overdose of her books will just make me start hating the protagonists and feeling sick and jealous of them, because they always seem to able to get out of their own trouble they caused themselves at the end of the day which is so unfair! So everything in moderation, yes (Y)

Kindred Spirits by Sarah Strohmeyer

Another one of those books that I picked out randomly from the library shelves. The storyline is kind of expected, and it is one of those happily-ever-after books (not that I am complaining) that leaves one feeling satisfied and happy at the end. But at the same time It was a really moving book, making me close to tears for some of the parts. The characters were intriguing, the words were powerful and the meaning is so deep that I do not fully understand all of it. Requires a second read definitely in future, when I am older. Really appreciate how the ladies' friendship stayed so strong and hope I will be able to keep my dear girlfriends close by in future. Just wished I could appreciate and empathise with the martinis described in the book as well - maybe in future when I am older! I remember one quote from the book saying how blue martinis can "turn strangers into friends, therefore turn failures into triumphs" - that's a really nice and inspiring quote, which is applicable for many situations apart from the surface meaning. Oh and last thing, another lesson I gained from this book is, to obviously treasure your loved ones around you, and be glad of all the friends you have amazingly met and kept throughout your life (:

Okay! I will continue to build up this list!

Today's The Day Results Were Released -

终于可以给这个学期做一个总结了

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坚持不在午夜一过就查   是因为不想看到个别成绩后 让自己郁闷整个晚上  虽然以前的我确实是抱着 带着坏心情睡个一晚上 隔天就会好了 的心态 。。。不过貌似这次和往常不一样午夜一过也只能看到整体的升降 

Looking at the individual grades is kind of depressing, especially for mod which I had expectations for and also when I saw history repeat itself. And then I realised what was making me feel so depressed was perhaps because I was focusing too much on the sad bits and letting them cloud over everything else. 

Need to keep telling myself - though the grades, regardless good or bad, are here to stay; but after some semesters and time, they probably do not matter much as well (hopefully)! Results will be the key to the first gate, but there are many other keys I need to have still :/

No regrets. Be proud of what I've managed to achieve. Look towards the new semester. And work harder! (:

Counting the Weekends; Counting the Blessings-

Now I am starting to believe how fast weekends can just fly by like that as I feel it myself. If you really count it, there are only 2 days for each weekend and the speed at which these 2 days can pass is just amazingly wow.

(Especially so when the weekend is lined up with activities and activities haha)

So, for the first Friday of this summer holidays, I caught Iron Man 3! AND IT WAS AMAZINGLY AWESOME! :3 haha didn't get to watch it last time with the rest because finals haven't ended for me yet, so was pretty glad I still managed to catch it with my other group of friends at Filmgarde (: The only Marvel-character movie I properly watched was Avengers, so I actually know nuts about these people and their background etc. Therefore, from my own (humble) perspective, I can only say it's such a sweet and romantic  plot that I can swoon over -- a heart-warming love story that makes my heart go all warm and fuzzy! (: And the powerful Iron Man with all the cool iron suits just made everything even more romantic ahh~ I realise the ideal bf/partner should be a Superhero that the girl can be proud of (not exactly or necessarily the save-the-day kind of Superhero in this sense), and likewise a girl should also be someone who can make the bf proud as well. Anyway, I am just really overwhelmed with thoughts like these after the movie, and it was a really interesting experience to watch such a late-night movie because it ended super late that everybody has to rush to catch the last train/bus home. (8

Saturday was family time (: Steamboat for dinner! (Y) I don't know why as I get older I feel the urge and need to spend more time with my family at home, especially when the time I reach home gets later after work started. And this will definitely be how it will be like, or even worse, when the real thing gets going. Sometimes, I wonder how we can make so much time for meeting up with friends to do catching up but not so much for our family. Maybe that's just me.

Sunday was appreciation dinner. So much to say but I don't know where or how to start. Probably it will be best to just be thankful, keep all these memories in the heart, and continue to look forward (:

Today is going to be another lovely day ahead - Be Positive (&ddiao)! :D

The First Day (:

第一天实习的兴奋心情犹如第一天上学般 只不过不同的是 这次上的学校名叫 “社会“ 而要学的课叫作 “人生“  

Oddly enough the work I was doing on my first day reminded me of what I did during my audit internship last year, though one may say they are totally unrelated. Somehow I thought they were rather similar, but for now I feel myself preferring this more. Though it's just mere typing and keying in, I personally felt I could better see the purpose and rationale behind doing this Haha or maybe it's just because I'm biased towards this industry (:

So even though I am just doing admin work for now, I am glad to be doing it in an industry I like.

I used to think accountants have a pretty easy life, because I get the impression they just need to keep records and stuffs like that. (I think that's the job of a bookkeeper instead?) Okay but anyways I know how wrong I am when I heard about what accountants in the finance team have to do here, especially those high level senior staff. Requires a lot of thinking, a lot of judgment, a lot of decision-making (and that reminded me of MA) Head of Finance does not seem that easy anymore, neither do accountants.

Still have much more to learn and understand. But at least that put my narrow mind into better perspective! I was already rather drained out for the first day haha hope I will get used to this routine soon. Looking forward to the days ahead! :D

最近为朋友们挑生日礼物弄得自己很纠结 :/

人家说这过程讲求诚意 我不否认 所以每次想为些好朋友庆生时 都会精心挑选礼物后包装好 然后满心欢喜地送给朋友 希望我挑的他们会喜欢 只不过或许是自己顾虑的太多吧 总觉得自己在帮别人挑礼物时就会一直想这想那 然后一直反问 ‘会不会喜欢这个‘ ‘如果不喜欢怎么办？‘ ‘是不是该选个比较实用的？‘ 等等的一大堆 送出去后有时这些问号还是没被赶走

我妈老跟我说别在意 礼物送到了不就好了吗 纠结个啥 也许是庸人自扰吧 不过站在收礼物人的立场 我还是有坚持的

记得小时候特想要那个灰姑娘城堡的玩具 心里特希望我家人会给我买来当我生日礼物  有一年我生日时 叔叔婶婶给了我个包装的很美的礼物 小小的心抱着那个小小的希望 天真以为当时的愿望成真了 结果是加菲猫扑满 是有些小失落的 不过老实说当时我就已经知道城堡是不可能的

然后长大后 同学们都会开始互送礼物 有一阵子我总会看到别人收到绒毛布偶之类可爱的玩具 当时我抱着希望 等着哪年在我生日时有人能懂有人会送 结果当然是没等到啦 所以最后我就自己给自己买了 （8 越买越多后 老实说就逐渐对它们失去兴趣了 只不过当时真的很希望有某个朋友会问 会知道

现在仍希望如此哟~

（话说会不会觉得自己为别人买的那些礼物 送出去后有一些小不舍 因为那些其实帮别人买的礼物 其实也是自己希望别人送给自己的）

THE BEGINNING (:

Can't believe it's over today. 

9th May. I have not been keeping track of the dates ever since studying started, and the days just kept going on like that. It seems that in this kind of situation, time can also pass by very fast. Day after day, one day after another... Sometimes as I struggled to keep up with my revision schedule, I feel like I'm chasing after time, not knowing what the date is and just focusing on completing what I planned to complete for each day. Just plain oblivion really :/

And then it ended. I can't believe we all managed to survive up until the last day of exams! And I can't believe end of exams just left me feeling rather defeated this time, instead of the supposed joy and relief I was looking forward to.

Had a hard time trying to get my mind off the stupid things I did for my last paper just now, but I was glad the late-night convo with xj helped so so much! <3

SO OFF WITH ALL THE NEGATIVITY AND START A NEW DAY ON A BRIGHTER NOTE! :D GET MYSELF TOGETHER AND ALL READY FOR A BRAND NEW LIFE COMING UP WHEEEEEEEE! (Y)